wrong (family)

few steps back. always.

living with some people.

do not pay rent.

do not say much.

it's not the way I prefer it.

but still. time's not right.

***

hm, just noticed.

when I write in Croatian... 

(I) put so much I in a sentence.

in English... I'mm avoiding it.

living with some people. 

do not pay rent. 

do not say much. 

I'm living with some people.

I do not pay rent.

I do not say much.

anyway.

I hoped to learn a bit. Of English.

But not in the mood to learn anything.

not in the mood to check out all the words.

not in the mood.

who cares?

I can write.

I can be illiterate.

it's just a blog.

I can always delete it.

like I deleted some parts of my life.

almost.

(im)perfection.

so obvious it was.

not for me. 

spent so much time fighting against perfection.

trying to explain others and myself, again and again.

that perfections are not our friends.

but all that time...

spent.

skipping.

and just now it hit me.

fighting against perfection stole my time.

time I should have spent in dealing with imperfections.

when I say dealing...

I actually mean - playing.

English.

I remember I had 3 main reasons to love it.

(really needed reasons to love English.

it was easy to fall in love with Italian and Portuguese.

but English. well, two of us had some issues.)

*when you talk about yourself, you use - a capital letter. 

I guess that's the only way (for me) to learn that I! am important (in love with grammar :))

*there's that great word English has - present. 

a gift, an awareness and now. nothing special and at the same time - everything in just one word.

*and then. that dragon/kite thing. well, they do see a difference. 

in Croatian we say 'zmaj' for both of those meanings. 

sometimes a zmaj needs his own word, you know? 

like children need their own room.

- - -

one more reason. way beyond those 3.

never saw a language so playable as English is.

if I learn enough words... it can be like Lego.

it can become my favourite tool ever.

if I give us that chance.